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List...

2009-11-11T19:41:00.001-08:00

...of things I hate right now and am hoping will get better

1. That avoiding friend of mine
2. How much my family doesn't trust me
3. This pressure inside my chest
4. That insulting friend of mine
5. My school
6. The people in my school
7. The weight on my heart
8. How far away I am from everyone right now
9. The fact that I don't have anyone who I feel I can rant to like this
10. The fact that I can't find my daddy
11. How I don't like how I look right now. usually I'm okay with my appearance.
12. I can't see him for ten days. this week is going to suck.
13. god damn it
I'm just so sick and tired of everything.

ventventvent.

2009-11-11T18:12:00.000-08:00

so fucking annoyed right now with things that have been in the back of my mind for awhile. I just need to vent, so whatever. not like anyone reads this anyway.

I hate it when people insult my opinions and make it seem like I'm such a freak just because I think like that and I like certain things. I don't mind it when best friends do it because they smile and laugh and they don't make me feel awful because they stick by me anyway. We accept each other. but hey, if I just met you a month ago and you're finding out more about me, I'd really appreciate it if you'd not make me feel awful for liking the things I like. saying that "it's weird," and staring at me as if I should agree with you doesn't exactly give me the best feeling in the world. especially when I'm happily talking about it with others who have the same taste as me. yeah, I wouldn't insult what you liked if it were different than what I liked.

I hate it that one of my friends is suddenly avoiding me. we usually talk, usually. but not even a 'hello' or anything anymore. we've known each other since elementary and now it's kind of weird. I'm not even trying to figure it out anymore. I tried to ask him if anything was wrong, but he said 'no' and didn't continue speaking. he's okay with another friend of mine, but why me? I don't recall doing anything to him. maybe he's realized he just doesn't like me as a friend anymore, or saw something about me that he didn't like. god. whatever. it's his problem if he doesn't like me or he's mad. I think I'll try reaching out just one more time, and if it's the same then I'm done. not worth this much trouble if I'm worrying about someone who doesn't even like me.

= v= ;;

2009-09-27T10:37:00.000-07:00

I'm so sick and tired of some people right now, but I won't fill up an entire journal entry about them just because they really aren't worth it.
I'm just going to say :
Muck - you really shouldn't be insulting someone who has far better qualities than yourself.
Craw - BWAHAHAHA.

that is all.

-

I don't want to do homework, I want to go back to that Halloween store. ; A ; it was amazingggg.
I want to get a pirate costume for Halloween :) maybe I can wear that for the Halloween dance with CC wig ~~ MAYBE !

pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

2009-07-31T19:14:00.000-07:00

let's talk of good things first :
come to england with me, we'll have fairytale dreams and take pictures of the castles.

i feel beautiful and confident when i'm with kristal. her stardust must rub off on me.

i've recently gotten my first celebrity crush.

let's get this over with :
i'm so so disappointed. owl city is going on a fall tour and the show they're doing in vancouver only admits 19+ people. i wish i could become 19 for a day.

something's wrong with my eye. i'm going to get it checked out next week. hope it's nothing serious.

i'm feel like ranting about someone, but i won't.

dear vienna ♥

2009-07-26T19:14:00.000-07:00

i love my friends ♥
went to the beach with them a couple days ago. feeling lazyhappysatisfied as ever.

kind of looking forward to school starting, kind of not. i have one more month left of freedom.
i hope i can concentrate this year. hope i can still see my friends during the school year.

hope, hope, hope.

yesterday the sky looked like a shirley temple.

- - -

if you can't fight for what you want; believe in; think is right - what can you fight for ?
(gosh. this person makes me sick sick sick.)

ohSNAP shoot C:

2009-07-20T11:28:00.000-07:00

WELL YESTERDAY WAS OF THE AWESOMENESS YEAH ?
It was funner than AE imo, is that sad ? OHWELL. it was fun C:
I'm going to be using this blog for both personal and cosplay reasons, so BE PREPARED. My srz business pics will be up on dA, so for now this'll be the LOLZTASTIC photo dump

Lavi thinks he isn't in the picture.

Gotcha !

My sister caught a strange moment.

ilu guys <3

do not wanttttt.

I'm beginning to notice how the others look awesome and epic, all of the above - and I turn and smile at the camera.

example two.

GOKUDERA WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

Gokudera has such a pleased expression on his face.

I have an idea-

-HUZZAH !

My sister tried to sleep. I didn't let her.

☆ you are my s t a r

2009-07-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

aasdjksahkjashdkjsahkjsad. got back from theatre awhile ago. DANG. that movie was dang good. dang. i wanted to eat pizza. i still do. but we couldn't. *CRIES*
there were so many people who were there an hour early just to get a good seat so we got the crappiest ones. (i bet they were there three hours earlier.)

ginny x harry = love.
hermoine x ron = love.
= love !!

ashdjakjkahdjkahkjd. dumbledoreeee.. ;__; i feel so depressed.

kristal wants blue eyes.
she's going to hurt herself putting in blue contacts.
poor baby. <3

we waited a good hour `til the movie started.
i think we were obnoxiously loud and annoying. the guy beside us fell asleep during the movie.
he paid $11 to fall asleep half way through.
ha.

i love kristal lal.

moe moe KYUUN

2009-07-14T15:01:00.000-07:00

< - i'm not usually this
serious looking D:
but the three of us are going to watch Harry Potter tomorrow ! i'm so excited ! i heard it was the best Harry Potter movie that ever came out. (ihopeitis)

AAAH my sister's so cute. she looks like Mio with short hair !
cutecutecute. * v *

- - -

i'm so excited for my k-on group !
and learning the guitar. yesyesyesyes.
all we could find when we went k-on shopping was the shirts and ribbons ;__;
that stupid cashmere sweater that was too expensive and too perfect. hatehatehateit.

i want a hair cut so badddd. ;__;
long hair doesn't really suit me much does it .. ? HERE'S THE PLAN : i'll get my hair re-styled/cut w/e. THEN i'll grow it long. and if i like it, keep it, or cut it again if i don't.
PERFECT PLAN * 0 *
wooooooooooooooooooooooot.

you came in and knocked me on my face.

2009-05-30T20:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes love comes around,
and knocks you down -
just get back up when it knocks you down.

you bring a better future than i had in the past - oh, cause i don't wanna make the same mistakes i did, i don't wanna fall back on my face again.

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this time i won't let my heart beat reason. never again. i won't ever swoon when you whisper sweet things to me, i won't ever believe that they're real. because, actions speak louder than words, and all i ever received from you was word-vomit. (were they real?)

i used to think we were magic.

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'let it go, if it comes back, it's yours forever.' - bullshit.

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last day of school, i will be bold, for once in my life.
i will do what i want to do, and nothing will hold me back.

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never going to be left behind again. nevereverevereverever.
but then does that make me the person who leaves first ?

2009-05-13T15:43:00.000-07:00

those are all really beautiful words, but actions speak louder than words, in case you haven't heard.

-- ♥

ugh. socials class was really weird.
i mean, someone SAW her pick up the wallet, and then she left class, saying that someone else had it.
turns out he didn't, and he never left the class. so where the hell did she put it? that little lying thief.
leave my friend, the witness, alone. fucktards.

haha, i hate this school. hope mom gets a car so i can transfer someplace else.

-- ♥

vanilla teaaaa.

-- ♥

why does it have to rain?
i've had enough of rainwater for a long time, so please, mister sun, shine shine shine!
summersummersummersummerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. ♥♥

ramble, ramble.

2009-04-30T15:51:00.000-07:00

i had two options. (somewhat.)
i decided not to take either of them, today. what would that lead to, anyway?

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i saw an old friend that i miss very much.
we don't even talk anymore.

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i suck at lacrosse.

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wish me luck, please.

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rumours are retarded. people thrive off talking about others. how sad is that?
friends are supposed to support their friends, not believe the rumours about them.

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i want taro bbtea. badly.

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i'm thinking of taking choir next year.
how do you sign up for an online course?

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i love the piano.

. .

weeeeell. i'm totally broke so,
i don't think i can go to AE this year. it all depends.
(man, that sucks.)
i want to go to the masquerade ball so badly this year. i hope my moms lets me go. if i go to AE, anyway.

. .

i wanted to be more bold, i tried.
but i can't.

sir temperature

2009-04-28T16:59:00.001-07:00

i had a really strange peach popsicle today. it was really strange.

i'm so sick and tired of copy cats.
please, how hard is it to make up your own stuff and be your own kind of creative? it's not creative if it's copying.
art sites shouldn't have myspace type pictures up on them. that's not art.

i'm also tired of friends who take things out on other friends that don't deserve it. - especially since i didn't know.
(when you hear an apology, please listen to it. don't ignore it to rant on about your own problems as if i was actually at fault and KNEW other people were on your back.

ugh. especially if you tell me, your friend, 'i have no friends, nobody cares about me.' LIKE. HELLO? I'M RIGHT HERE. HOW DARE YOU DISREGARD THAT. i've been listening to you and caring for you and now you're like, 'so what?' )

-end of rant-

ANYWAY so, i can't wait `til summer.
i want to go to the beach really badly.

i have two options. i can accept both, or choose one.
..or none. :0
damnnn.

my report card came in today.
i didn't fail anything (: yessssss. i was so scared.

hannah's tired.

2009-04-27T17:00:00.000-07:00

the past few days were pretty great.
sun shininggg, being with my childhood friend, partyyy~ yeah. all that.

awesome.

i don't even know why i got this blog. who's going to read it anyway?

so uh. i counted the butterflies in my tummy.
i think i lost one. i hope so.
(three times the charm just doesn't apply.)

oh and keep me away from cutting apples.
you don't wanna know.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
i'm so bored of everything.
BOREDBOREDBORED.

i have an obsession with the song 'lollipop' - bigbang.

i want to get out more on weekdays.